Ok rather than answer separate messages and email I will open it up on here.
As an online personality, radio host and mother I want to make this shit clear. I have a sassmouth, I express myself online and on the airwaves with other co-hosts I will not edit myself and we all like me that way.
Just by watching you all over the past 6 months, I can see how suspicious and scared you are about new people and things out of the norm. I get it. What you see is what you get when it comes to me. I’ve been bullied all my life and I’m not about to feel that way ever again especially when none of you know me. I have great ideas, they don’t all work out, obviously, but the intentions are always good. I wanted to present our own Canadian show because we deserve one. I don’t know and don’t care about the drama or history in your community that is for you to hash out. It’s not my focus. My focus is to provide a space where new artists and vendors can sell their dolls and accessories to serious doll collectors. I took a leap wth investors, friends and most of you who supported it. Overall, it happened and I learned a lot.
For example, y’all cycles synched up so 4 days is too many days. Meals are too expensive so that won’t happen again. I welcome proper feedback here. Smart ass comments will be deleted and you will be banned from my site.
From the feedback I’ve received via email and private messaging in the last 24 hours most of you actually want to help make it better for next year.
This is the only reason I will even consider another show.
Instead of bashing something we cannot change I welcome feedback here and here only. If you want to show everyone how good the community is then prove it. I introduced people, who have been following me for years, to my doll making passion and they are all very intrigued.
I want a new community with more support than hate.
It has been a very full year already! It has been an incredible rollercoaster ride but I figured I should take you with me.
I have been working on an international doll show for that over 2 years. I’ve had my share of challenges through this journey but I didn’t give up and I am now 5 days away from a new piece of Canadian history! As a Doll Maker and craft doer I’ve been self taught in everything I have done in my million years of life. I’ve made quilts, stuffed animals, costumes for my kids… I have always been interested in how things are made and adding my flare when I give it a try. After my bout of health recovery and a note from my doctor stating I could never return to work, I felt like I needed some kind of purpose in life. My family was my motivation for my career but those few words and a disease telling me I could no longer have the lifestyle I lived was utterly devastating. My family members, as supportive as they are, were also going through their own kind of mourning and loss of who I used to be. It was a reality that was so hurtful and they struggle with it daily. Basically, I was given a lemon farm and I had to figure out what to do with myself.
After getting through my loss of normalcy as I had known it, I found myself alone in a quiet house and I had nothing to do. Aside from dishes, laundry and mopping I spent most of my time in bed with my laptop. It was 2010 and adjusting to my new world was going to take some time to get used to. Of course my depression was in full effect but YouTube opened my world of isolation. I didn’t have a lot of friends, by choice, I didn’t want anyone in my home and I just couldn’t cope. After watching videos of quilt making and clothes making I stumbled upon a video made by the Secrist company where they were demonstrating how to sculpt a baby head, lips and eyes. I continued on and binged watched everything from painting to rooting hair and I was absolutely hooked. I accepted that my days of having an actual baby were dwindling so I devoted all my time to creating these lifelike looking dolls.
I’ve been doing custom order work and practicing my craft paying attention to fine details for over 10 years and I finally found my “voice” through my artwork. I met the most amazingly talented fellow artists and have many customers/friends who appreciate what I do. After many years of creating, I want to give back to this loving industry and community.
After 2 years of planning my partners and I created the IAC Doll Show. The first one in Canada and the most anticipated in the reborn doll community. Many world renowned artists not only live in Canada but have supported my vision for the entire venture. I will give back to this community and the people who have supported me.
As my favourite Disney princess sings:
“…no matter how your heart is grieving, if you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true”
I hope you all have a fabulous week and I will update you as the countdown continues 🥰
I must say I’m uber proud of myself! Not only have I had so much success with my event planning, but I have been sticking to my schedule by uploading and posting on time with my doll channel. I have an amazingly strong team behind me full of energy and positivity!
My Creative Director has left me gobsmacked with her ideas and proactivity, I feel truly blessed. We had some early bumps in the road with some hits and misses with my team, but we finally have our footing and the right people who are ready for 2019!
It’s an amazing feeling to see my ideas and goals come to fruition. As an entrepreneur I admit I was afraid that my vision was misunderstood. My advice to those preparing to run a business is to hold on to that vision until the right people come into your life. I held on for the right time and boom I’ve had nothing but positive results and I’m now surrounded with strong professionals that are self motivated and love what we do.
In this sea of competition, I believe that many people lose sight of what really matters. When dollars and cents are involved it can clash with the pure love of the art. I’ve seen many people blur the two things and end up in competition with each other. Well, my fellow indie artists, the only challenge you should ever accept is the one with yourself. Art is interpretive some will love your work some will like others’ work don’t let that discourage you! There are billions of people on this earth you will find your “people” you will find your niche.
I find it very sad when I see people envious or jealous. Those are 2 horrible traits to have, let those things go! They serve no purpose but destruction of relationships and contribute to the destruction of your soul. Steer clear of poisonous people and their venom and never second guess yourself. Sometimes the most venom comes in the form of a friend, a coworker and even a family member, you will rise above and you will recover. Trust your instincts, you know, that voice in your head or that knot in your stomach even the warnings of others. I love the saying “listen to what people tell you about themselves because they’re right” not sure if that was Dr. Phil, lol, be aware that you do have a choice to ignore, deny or accept those warnings to be true. I admit to ignoring those warnings in my past and sure enough the outcome was not a good one.
Going into 2019 with a heart full of happiness and a plan is the only way I choose to start this year off right. I hope you all find your footing and wish you a positive and productive new year!
I had such a fun weekend and I’m so happy that the stresses of the world melted away. I ordered more supplies, worked on some fine details and now I feel more prepared for all my future projects. As a bonus, I got to meet up with some great friends and we ended the weekend with sharing some great laughs and stories.
This year’s Fall has been really strange. It is starting to get cooler but it hasn’t been at the regular temperatures for this time of year. The leaves on most of the trees are still green with only sporadic changing leaves on the trees outside the city and into the beautiful farm lands.
I’ve been having lots of action with regard to my more frequent travels to my favourite craft store. Not only is my destination to MacPerson Arts & Crafts equivalent to my “Disneyland” but the drive to St. Mary’s is absolutely beautiful! The quiet countryside is so filled with nature. With Turkey vultures circling over crops and wooded areas it’s so nice to watch them glide overhead, even though I know they are searching for their next meal.
I’m so in love with my travels on the back roads and the hidden dirt roads. Just the sound of the tires crunching over gravel is somehow satisfying to hear.
I’m in the middle of projects, custom orders and events. I can feel that I’m just about to get crazy busy with Christmas holidays approaching. I’m ready to get working.
Great adventures are continuing to get some momentum. This is where I do the best work, on crunch time with a pile of work to do.
Is it weird that I actually like to be swamped with work? 🤔
I think about all the struggles I’ve had and I can now laugh at them. Things were so intense and I gave myself unwarranted stress for no reason.
There’s nothing better than being able to look back at my accomplishments and know I really busted my ass for this moment. Everything family and friends have said to me “you have too many kids to make good money” “you can’t afford…” etc. was the fuel I needed to get me out of that self-doubting mindset. I had to really sit down and analyze myself as a whole.
People don’t see your vision and they definitely don’t see your efforts. Rather than gloating, I choose to extend my hand and help others achieve their greatness while I have attained mine. This is the whole reason I have been active on social media and offline functions and events. We all have a voice.
I have found my purpose and I’m proud of it. I leave you with this:
“Control” is a lie. You can only control your own reactions. Once you set your goal, you will experience joys and challenges. The challenges are Life’s way of redirecting you back on your path when you’ve slightly wandered away.
When you want something. The universe has only 3 answers for you:
It's the Civic Holiday weekend and it feels like the summer months passed by so fast! I blame most of this on the weirdest weather I've seen in years! It would rain so hard it sounded like hail against my windows, thunderstorms at least once a week followed by extreme heat where I could hardly breathe. Although, I'd rather have this weather than the upcoming winter months.
The back-to-school supplies and clothing are in all the stores, I can almost hear my bank account cry for my school shopping days that are just around the corner. It will be an emotional school year for me as my last little pterodactyl will be leaving the nest to go to school. So far, he knows his numbers up to 10 and backwards, but he refuses to sing the alphabet song lol. Thanks to the iPad he does know what the letters are, but he just doesn't like the song. I'm guessing that he thinks the song is dumb, he rolls his eyes every time I ask him to sing it.
Lately, my days are filled with doll orders and event planning. It's a truly exciting time for me. I have found what I love in all aspects of my life from the kids, social life and now my artistry. They often say that when your personal life is good everything else around is chaos. I am living proof that the saying is NOT true. We all need to find the balance in our own lives or things get harder and harder to do. It's like the universe makes some things in our lives difficult in order to accept something better in our lives. "Out with the old, in with the new" has a deeper meaning than we think. This whole year has unraveled many important life choices for me. My family relationships have been stronger now than ever, financial security is finally here, reuniting with my childhood best friend, maintaining deeper relationships with my friends from all over my online world and forming new amazing friendships who have cleared my mind and settled my soul.
Yes, you can have it all, yes abundance is attainable. If you want these things, you have to release everything that you know is holding you back. It will seem so difficult to let go, but it will be worth it and those difficult moments you are experiencing right now, will be in your distant past. Right when you're about to give up hope is when you have to gather up as much strength as you have to get through the rough moments. You will see your end goals, not when YOU want to see it, but when you're ready to accept it.
For the last 2 days it’s been so humid and hot I couldn’t go outside. The dogs didn’t even want to stay outside for very long. I’m thinking of getting a hose that mists around the deck in the backyard. It’s hard to explain but when I find one I’ll post a picture.
The air conditioner has been running hard and I’m sure my hydro bill will be a hefty one 🙄 thanks to the Ontario premier. (I don’t like her at all, to put that politely)
I’m still excited about the summer. When the kids are finally done the school year I can sleep in. Lol that’s my goal.
On that note be aware of the heat and stay cool during these unpredictable heat waves. Drink lots of water and relax as much as you can.
I’ve paved my path with gold, but the path lead to deception,
I filled my heart with love, but my heart ended up breaking,
I built my castle with all I had, but it crumbled under my tears,
I pressed on with all my hope, but I’m tired after all these years,
Like a vine on a trellis I’ll keep climbing even when things look bleak,
Like a dusty coin I’ll keep shining and one day I’ll find my peace.
It seemed as if I was ready to put my plan in motion and move forward, then like the boom of thunder something happens and I’m lead yet again down a very unknown path. Making alterations and changing schedules has been an ongoing thing. Sometimes it feels like I’m 2 steps forward yet 1 step back and it can be a tedious cycle. Although it definitely feels like a Monday, it feels as if this is the moment where I have to adjust my plan to accommodate an even better opportunity. I’m not sure where it will lead me and I really never want to know, I just know that I am being slightly forced to venture into very uncharted waters. It’s both exciting and I’m full of anticipation I almost feel like a child with a great book, skipping forward a few pages just to be sure they know the outcome.
After moving and transforming over the last few months, I’ve accepted that for whatever reason, I chose this ever changing and unknown path and that’s ok. I still love what I do and I’m willing to leave more room for changes when it comes to my decision making.
My vision is becoming more and more tangible with every opportunity that has been presented to me. I am ever grateful to all my online people that have not only been inspirations but have become dear close friends of mine.
My next goal is to plan a family trip to Disney World… I’m thinking about traveling there in a large RV and a strong wifi connection.. maybee… hmmmm…