Ok rather than answer separate messages and email I will open it up on here.
As an online personality, radio host and mother I want to make this shit clear. I have a sassmouth, I express myself online and on the airwaves with other co-hosts I will not edit myself and we all like me that way.
Just by watching you all over the past 6 months, I can see how suspicious and scared you are about new people and things out of the norm. I get it. What you see is what you get when it comes to me. I’ve been bullied all my life and I’m not about to feel that way ever again especially when none of you know me. I have great ideas, they don’t all work out, obviously, but the intentions are always good. I wanted to present our own Canadian show because we deserve one. I don’t know and don’t care about the drama or history in your community that is for you to hash out. It’s not my focus. My focus is to provide a space where new artists and vendors can sell their dolls and accessories to serious doll collectors. I took a leap wth investors, friends and most of you who supported it. Overall, it happened and I learned a lot.
For example, y’all cycles synched up so 4 days is too many days. Meals are too expensive so that won’t happen again. I welcome proper feedback here. Smart ass comments will be deleted and you will be banned from my site.
From the feedback I’ve received via email and private messaging in the last 24 hours most of you actually want to help make it better for next year.
This is the only reason I will even consider another show.
Instead of bashing something we cannot change I welcome feedback here and here only. If you want to show everyone how good the community is then prove it. I introduced people, who have been following me for years, to my doll making passion and they are all very intrigued.
I want a new community with more support than hate.
It has been a very full year already! It has been an incredible rollercoaster ride but I figured I should take you with me.
I have been working on an international doll show for that over 2 years. I’ve had my share of challenges through this journey but I didn’t give up and I am now 5 days away from a new piece of Canadian history! As a Doll Maker and craft doer I’ve been self taught in everything I have done in my million years of life. I’ve made quilts, stuffed animals, costumes for my kids… I have always been interested in how things are made and adding my flare when I give it a try. After my bout of health recovery and a note from my doctor stating I could never return to work, I felt like I needed some kind of purpose in life. My family was my motivation for my career but those few words and a disease telling me I could no longer have the lifestyle I lived was utterly devastating. My family members, as supportive as they are, were also going through their own kind of mourning and loss of who I used to be. It was a reality that was so hurtful and they struggle with it daily. Basically, I was given a lemon farm and I had to figure out what to do with myself.
After getting through my loss of normalcy as I had known it, I found myself alone in a quiet house and I had nothing to do. Aside from dishes, laundry and mopping I spent most of my time in bed with my laptop. It was 2010 and adjusting to my new world was going to take some time to get used to. Of course my depression was in full effect but YouTube opened my world of isolation. I didn’t have a lot of friends, by choice, I didn’t want anyone in my home and I just couldn’t cope. After watching videos of quilt making and clothes making I stumbled upon a video made by the Secrist company where they were demonstrating how to sculpt a baby head, lips and eyes. I continued on and binged watched everything from painting to rooting hair and I was absolutely hooked. I accepted that my days of having an actual baby were dwindling so I devoted all my time to creating these lifelike looking dolls.
I’ve been doing custom order work and practicing my craft paying attention to fine details for over 10 years and I finally found my “voice” through my artwork. I met the most amazingly talented fellow artists and have many customers/friends who appreciate what I do. After many years of creating, I want to give back to this loving industry and community.
After 2 years of planning my partners and I created the IAC Doll Show. The first one in Canada and the most anticipated in the reborn doll community. Many world renowned artists not only live in Canada but have supported my vision for the entire venture. I will give back to this community and the people who have supported me.
As my favourite Disney princess sings:
“…no matter how your heart is grieving, if you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true”
I hope you all have a fabulous week and I will update you as the countdown continues 🥰
I must say I’m uber proud of myself! Not only have I had so much success with my event planning, but I have been sticking to my schedule by uploading and posting on time with my doll channel. I have an amazingly strong team behind me full of energy and positivity!
My Creative Director has left me gobsmacked with her ideas and proactivity, I feel truly blessed. We had some early bumps in the road with some hits and misses with my team, but we finally have our footing and the right people who are ready for 2019!
It’s an amazing feeling to see my ideas and goals come to fruition. As an entrepreneur I admit I was afraid that my vision was misunderstood. My advice to those preparing to run a business is to hold on to that vision until the right people come into your life. I held on for the right time and boom I’ve had nothing but positive results and I’m now surrounded with strong professionals that are self motivated and love what we do.
In this sea of competition, I believe that many people lose sight of what really matters. When dollars and cents are involved it can clash with the pure love of the art. I’ve seen many people blur the two things and end up in competition with each other. Well, my fellow indie artists, the only challenge you should ever accept is the one with yourself. Art is interpretive some will love your work some will like others’ work don’t let that discourage you! There are billions of people on this earth you will find your “people” you will find your niche.
I find it very sad when I see people envious or jealous. Those are 2 horrible traits to have, let those things go! They serve no purpose but destruction of relationships and contribute to the destruction of your soul. Steer clear of poisonous people and their venom and never second guess yourself. Sometimes the most venom comes in the form of a friend, a coworker and even a family member, you will rise above and you will recover. Trust your instincts, you know, that voice in your head or that knot in your stomach even the warnings of others. I love the saying “listen to what people tell you about themselves because they’re right” not sure if that was Dr. Phil, lol, be aware that you do have a choice to ignore, deny or accept those warnings to be true. I admit to ignoring those warnings in my past and sure enough the outcome was not a good one.
Going into 2019 with a heart full of happiness and a plan is the only way I choose to start this year off right. I hope you all find your footing and wish you a positive and productive new year!
I had such a fun weekend and I’m so happy that the stresses of the world melted away. I ordered more supplies, worked on some fine details and now I feel more prepared for all my future projects. As a bonus, I got to meet up with some great friends and we ended the weekend with sharing some great laughs and stories.
It’s always amazing when you meet someone that just gets you. Friendships come and go, but the ones that stay in your life unconditionally are angels on earth. Some great gut bursting laughs are the best medicine to a hard day.
It's the Civic Holiday weekend and it feels like the summer months passed by so fast! I blame most of this on the weirdest weather I've seen in years! It would rain so hard it sounded like hail against my windows, thunderstorms at least once a week followed by extreme heat where I could hardly breathe. Although, I'd rather have this weather than the upcoming winter months.
The back-to-school supplies and clothing are in all the stores, I can almost hear my bank account cry for my school shopping days that are just around the corner. It will be an emotional school year for me as my last little pterodactyl will be leaving the nest to go to school. So far, he knows his numbers up to 10 and backwards, but he refuses to sing the alphabet song lol. Thanks to the iPad he does know what the letters are, but he just doesn't like the song. I'm guessing that he thinks the song is dumb, he rolls his eyes every time I ask him to sing it.
Lately, my days are filled with doll orders and event planning. It's a truly exciting time for me. I have found what I love in all aspects of my life from the kids, social life and now my artistry. They often say that when your personal life is good everything else around is chaos. I am living proof that the saying is NOT true. We all need to find the balance in our own lives or things get harder and harder to do. It's like the universe makes some things in our lives difficult in order to accept something better in our lives. "Out with the old, in with the new" has a deeper meaning than we think. This whole year has unraveled many important life choices for me. My family relationships have been stronger now than ever, financial security is finally here, reuniting with my childhood best friend, maintaining deeper relationships with my friends from all over my online world and forming new amazing friendships who have cleared my mind and settled my soul.
Yes, you can have it all, yes abundance is attainable. If you want these things, you have to release everything that you know is holding you back. It will seem so difficult to let go, but it will be worth it and those difficult moments you are experiencing right now, will be in your distant past. Right when you're about to give up hope is when you have to gather up as much strength as you have to get through the rough moments. You will see your end goals, not when YOU want to see it, but when you're ready to accept it.
It’s weird that over time we all forget to look around and see how lucky we all are to be alive and breathing. Being a Canadian sometimes makes us complacent and numb to what we really have. Our country is rich in resources, kind people and humour. Canadians always get the same old lame jokes on the use of “eh” and “Sorry”; but newsflash… We aren’t really that sorry, eh! It’s funny when other countries have a lot of shit to say about us, yet they have never had the pleasure to visit our country nor really know any of us. We are the constant “joke”, however over the years I have realized one common thing with my fellow Canadians and that is… we really don’t have that much to complain about. Of course, we are not free from crime, violence, etc. but, as I look out my open window and it’s quiet with a few sounds from the neighbourhood kids. I truly appreciate where I am.
I rant about the current government, I won’t go into that in this post lol, but when I stop and think about it we have a lot more say, we have a lot more power than we even know. On that note, my new adventure will include visiting all the towns and cities that surround my little corner of Canada. I will bring you all with me and show you the world through my eyes.
Canada turns 150 years old on July 1st, I will be spending it with my recently reunited childhood best friend and our families. It’s time to celebrate our beautiful Canada and what it has always had to offer! YAY Canada!!
I had the pleasure of attending a great underground hiphop concert with Moka Only & Robbie G. These 2 artists never cease to get me moving on the dance floor, Robbie G has a smooth lyrical flow that is all heart. You can feel his passion for hip hop through his energy on stage.
Moka Only has a soulful style that represents why I fell in love with hiphop music. He kept the crowd jumping and my stiletto heels tapping. He would bust out in a freestyle randomly and interacted with the audience like we were all just hanging out. A very down to earth artist and performer like a breath of fresh air.
My latest travel to NYC was full of adventure and high energy! I didn’t expect to love New York as much as I do now.
My hometown is 2 hours away from the Detroit airport which made for an early start to my trip at 1:00am early Thursday morning. The shuttle bus was on time and filled with 10 passengers. Out of 10 travellers I managed to hold up entire bus up at the border trying to explain what Meerkat (@AppMeerkat) was. The officer wanted to know how I met my friends and what I was doing with the live streaming. It was probably the most drilling set of questions I’ve had to answer but on top of that, the officer looked up my website! (He may be reading now, so HELLO! 🙂 Mr. Custom’sOfficer!) He was very professional and he thanked me for giving him my information. It was a little awkward on the bus after that, but we made it through.
My 8am flight took off and arrived on time at 10am. Right from the time I collected my bags and exited the airplane I was already pumped full of excitement! It was amazing to see Herbie (@HerbieMerrin) and Betsy (@BetsyBoop35) in real life and we even had time to stop off and see Ricky (@rickysanquiche) before we got to meet up with Nick (@dagadgetguy) for our Olive Garden dinner. I’m still proud to boast that I out ate all three of them and cleared my plate like a true Foody and I cleared the plate again at Applebee’s haha.
I took in all the sights and the action on the streets. Be it by car, bicycle or by foot, the only speed that New Yorkers know is FAST! With Herbie’s driving skills and Betsy’s sass, I quickly felt safe and at home among the Big Apple dwellers.
One of the favourite places I visited was the Fifth Avenue Apple Store
The Apple Store was complete with a clear glass elevator that Nick and I could not resist so we took the elevator up from the enormous underground store.
This was the BEST first day of vacation!! 😀
The couple of days were spent shopping, laughter and great food..
I had an unforgettable time with friends that now feel more like family than anything else. We all bonded in a way that would not have been possible without Meerkat and the magic of the internet.
I miss my dear friends and my Brooklyn home away from home.. but, I will be back…
Much love everyone hope you all have a great weekend! 😉
Midsummer is in full swing and I’m not only feeling the heat but my days have been filled with major changes in my lifestyle choices and a new beginning into a very exciting future!
A couple months ago, I made some serious lifestyle changes which not only included a lot of soul searching, but also required me to move into a new home, furnish it and put my business and travel plans into “full speed”. In the midst of a tough situation, I managed to find my zen in a beautiful new home complete with everything I could ever hope for, the catch is that I have to furnish the entire thing! Although, like many, I love to decorate and shop for my home I have to admit after almost 2 months of getting things organized and moved in I am EXHAUSTED!
Not only am I shopping for the house, but with September fast approaching I’ve been spending my last couple days getting the kids ready for their new schools, new clothing and appointments. Yes..I still use my planner on a daily basis and it has been a lifesaver.
The whole transition into a new life may come with some hiccups, but I take each hiccup with a proverbial drink of positive water and keep on moving towards my goals. Due to the move, all my traveling plans were put on hold, so it’s time for this girl to pack her travel bag and get some much needed relaxation.
Being on Meerkat ( @AppMeerkat ) has introduced me to some amazing business contacts which have turned into some great friends. After almost 5 months, I finally get to meet and hang out with some of my favourite people in New York! My tickets are booked and now all I have to do is get packing! My travel clothes are lined up and my itinerary has been finalized. It will be an epic trip! 😀
Much love to all, I hope your summer has been a great one, too! I’ll update you all soon!