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Getting more creative

I’ve been sick lately which has forced me to slow down on a few time sensitive things such as poster and media, designs, target dates.. it was getting to be a bit much. I guess this cold is somewhat of a double edged sword.

I get a lot of questions about my dolls. I used to be really stand-off-ish with everyone because I really wasn’t confident in my work. Like most artists I know we are our own worst critic but it wasn’t until the last 3 years that I finally let go and embraced what I’ve learned and continue to learn about my craft.

For the next part of my journey I’ve decided to get a little more artsy fartsy. Now this won’t be just a road of making and selling dolls, I’ll be documenting more if my personal journey as an artist. So let’s begin tonight.

It’s 1:43am and I’m waiting for the paint to dry while watching Netflix on my iPad. The house is nice and quiet and there’s only one light coming from my desk lamp. It actually reminds me of my childhood. When I was in either grade 1 or 2, I loved the Disney version of Pinocchio. There was a picture of Geppetto working in his workshop at night looking up at the sky wishing for Pinocchio. Haha I guess it’s eerily very similar. This took s very strange turn. Maybe it’s the paint fumes 🤷🏻‍♀️

More soon!SS

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Feeling comfortable

I can’t say how happy I am to finally be able to enjoy my artwork. I love what I do! I’ve been slowly building my doll collection, yes I’m probably going to be one of those women with a bunch of dolls. I did promise myself to not get crazy and go over 10 dolls in the entire house… ok well, I promised my boys.

It’s the beginning of the Christmas season and I can already hear the sound of crunch time. I have a few dolls to make before Christmas and few of my own I want to complete.

A couple of events happened over the last couple months that would’ve left me jaded about 5 years ago, but today is a very different day. I felt validated and self assured that I am on the right path. It’s funny what they say. When you feel adversity or opposition from others, it says a lot more about them than it does about you. I’ve learned that you do choose your future and things may look bleak but it must look that way temporarily in order to achieve what you deserve. 2018 is coming up fast and I am extremely excited! There will be lots of meetings, planning, coordinating, but my goal is worth it!

Let the Christmas songs, sweaters and Santa pictures begin! 🎄

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Full Circle up North

I traveled up Northern Ontario for a life celebration. I love the idea of celebrating life versus funerals. I lost my beautiful mother-in-law and it’s been such a rollercoaster ride of emotions. It’s never easy to lose someone and as the years go on I know I will lose more.

It’s been years since I’ve been in Kingston and traveling down memory lane was a trip! Everything looks smaller than I remember but the malls get bigger and bigger. Not much changed over the last 10 years but it still holds a piece of my heart. Traveling through Westport and seeing the beautiful landscapes, mini lakes it’s heaven. Being somewhat cut off from the world and off the grid is so refreshing. I love being online and meeting new people but I also love being in the wilderness surrounded by nature. I feel like Canada is that happy medium.

I’m currently in a beautiful logwood home laughing and bonding with family. I guess you could call this my full circle moment.

Much love my friends!

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Therapy for healing

The first time I saw a reborn doll I instantly fell in love. As a doll lover I was so intrigued at how artists could express their own vision for each doll kit. Here’s my story:

In 2010, my whole world crashed, I went into the hospital expecting a quick fix instead, I was admitted immediately and fought for my life for 5 weeks away from all my family and friends. After those long weeks of not knowing, I was finally diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. That wasn’t the worst part, my neurologists, specialists and physicians informed me that I was no longer able to return to work, I had physical limitations, mental limitations and I would only get worse… oh, and that there’s no cure.

As a mother of 6 children, a wife, a sister and a daughter; giving up was not even a thought in my mind. However, I also knew I was going to go bananas if I didn’t have anything to do during the times when I would be bedridden. That’s when I thought about the reborn doll that my mother in law showed me. I, admittedly, became obsessive over every bit of the reborn doll process. I watched documentaries, read articles and spent hours self teaching, practicing painting and hair rooting. Working on reborn dolls became, and still is, my therapy.

I introduced the world of reborning dolls to my friend in New York. She loved my dolls so much and was so intrigued by them I decided to send her 2 of my reborn dolls, 1 for her and 1 for her mother who suffers from dementia. I knew about the therapy values of these dolls but nothing prepared me for the video chat from my friend showing me her mother’s reactions. Her eyes lit up and to this day, she holds and changes her babydoll every day. It was transforming for me.

A few months later, I was contacted by many who were curious about the dolls. One woman in particular reached out to me about her story and how she suffers from PTSD. We developed a bond and I put all me heart into a doll for her. Once her babydoll arrived, she sent me pictures of her family holding the doll and they were all crying with happiness, yes that included her husband. My husband and I were moved to tears. In that moment I knew the power of healing that these dolls have. My therapy can now help others and that is my goal for as long as I can create these works of art.

The first time I stepped into MacPherson’s I was speechless. It is an artist’s and doll collector’s dream! On my first visit I was lucky enough to have met Brenda. She is one of the most positive people I have ever met and her staff is equally friendly and sweet. As an artist, being able to physically look at and touch the different kits is invaluable to my reborning process.

I look forward to any chance I get to visit the store in St Marys which is only a 45 minutes away from my city.

Dear artists, this is a remarkable community and with the help and encouragement from the MacPherson’s staff, you can go through your own processes with ease. You will always be welcomed with open arms.

MacPherson’s always signs off with a “Have a beautiful day” and every time I visit, I do indeed have a beautiful day.

Thank you, Brenda and your wonderful staff for all your support for me and many other reborn artists, you are all beautiful inside and out.

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Vlog #19 Stuffed.

I had a fantastic Thanksgiving celebrating with family and some new found friends.  I love being surrounded by so much positivity.  The weather is beautiful, the kids are happy and there’s nothing but awesomeness coming up!

Happy Thanksgiving!

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Review: I Am Jane Doe

I am jane doe

I’m always on the look out for some really great movies and documentaries on Netflix and I’ve always found little hidden gems on this streaming network.  I haven’t been disappointed so it’s safe to say that Netflix has given me pretty good recommendations as per my profile.  This documentary, “I AM JANE DOE”, was one that immediately caught my eyes.

The documentary is ultimately dark and a sad truth of the reality these day.  All the freedom to explore and have great experiences all at your fingertips.  The internet has become a double-edged sword for us all, some good and some bad.  If you are on the internet at all, you already have experience be it sharing family outings to being trolled by some random stranger.  This movie is not the romantic side of the internet, but it shows the very real horrors of being on the internet.

Human trafficking.  Just those two words together is enough to make anyone’s skin crawl, but unfortunately it is a very real epidemic that doesn’t just happen in third world countries. It seems like our North American lives turns a blind mind towards the realities of Human Trafficking.  Believe it or not, North America is a haven for kidnapped children who are then sold to the long awaited customers.  In this day and of age of 2017, our children are not only being kidnapped and ripped from our parental arms, but our children are at risk every moment of every day.

After watching this movie you will not only hug your children a lot more, but you will be also empowered to be proactive with your children.  No one is really protected on the internet.  It’s no different than being exposed to the same crimes out in public.  Unfortunately, money talks and politicians are easily swayed from doing the right thing to doing what is easiest.  The truth is that we are on our own, we can’t ask the government for help when they have no answers.  We have to educate ourselves and our children and although we are very “free” we will always be an arms length from harm.  Our complacency leaves our children in very real danger.

I encourage you to watch this documentary and use it as a tool to protect those that you love.  Predators don’t hide in the shadows anymore, they hide in plain sight through the internet.  Protect your babies by educating them and yourself, that’s the first defence.

SS