A subject that has come up quite a lot but I really feel strongly about. Strangely a topic that seems to peak the curiosity of many and that is… “Don’t you think you’ll miss them terribly when they move out?”
The answer in every fibre of my being is N-O! Some msy say I’m “cold” but I honestly feel that is my job as a mother. To raise and release our children into the abyss of adulthood. I’m ancient enough to know that if we have any expectations of our children we will feel that low blow of disappointment, so I choose to stick with hope and a prayer.
I believe that is truth in all our relationships. Life has an interesting way of keeping us grounded and my children ground me and keep me going ensuring that I’m guiding and leading and on top of my parenting game at all times. Once they’re ready they will let you know.
I touched on the subject a bit on my last livestream. Now that things are more steady in my life I will be able to share more and it’s going to be so fun!
For now here’s my last livestream I will have videos uploaded very soon too so hold tight!
Thanks guys and cheers to a new and fabulous week!
My Nest Won’t Empty
A follow up to my las Vlog about my skin reaction to my new drugs.
I called my doctor on Friday and explained all the problems with my skin, night sweats, etc. As part of the neurological team of specialists working with me, I have never experienced a doctor, let alone a specialist, drop everything to get on a 3-way call with his nurse and me to instruct me to reduce my meds immediately. It’s pretty scary since I’ve been on these meds for a year!
I was in the early stages of Stevens-Johnson syndrome and basically was chemically burning from the inside out and my organs were starting to shut down.. in a nutshell I was dying and days away from being hospitalized. The syndrome would’ve meant I would’ve been treated in the intensive care burn unit and would take months to recover! I describe the rash pain like when you scrape your knee, for example, it starts to heal but is tender to touch during the process. It’s the same feeling only the pain is from under the skin. It’s the weirdest thing. The human body is amazingly resilient and efficient. It was trying to get rid of all this chemical crap that was in my system.
The trick to this whole MS disease is the delicate balance of medication which changes and can easily be thrown out of whack. The hard part is that as soon as I feel good I don’t want that feeling to go away despite the side effects. I guess my balance has to be found in not enduring through the side effects. I’m not much of a complainer, but I’m gonna have to start writing some issues down.
Travel and events in the next year are already in full swing, contracts signed, staff to hire, etc. I need to be in medical healthy balance now more than ever! I hope this is the last hurdle I have to jump through.
I would say that’d be my Christmas miracle this year. Being with my whole family for the holidays has been awesome despite my medical scare. My family has completely fallen into abundance. Being around friends who share the same core values, interests and enjoy a good game of cards or pool 🎱 has been so fun. I’ve seen a whole different side of Canada and I’m going to see even more in the new year. I will definitely share that here.
Hope everyone is having a great week! Stay healthy, listen to your gut feelings and always love yourself and your life! Take care my friends ❤️
I’ve been sick lately which has forced me to slow down on a few time sensitive things such as poster and media, designs, target dates.. it was getting to be a bit much. I guess this cold is somewhat of a double edged sword.
I get a lot of questions about my dolls. I used to be really stand-off-ish with everyone because I really wasn’t confident in my work. Like most artists I know we are our own worst critic but it wasn’t until the last 3 years that I finally let go and embraced what I’ve learned and continue to learn about my craft.
For the next part of my journey I’ve decided to get a little more artsy fartsy. Now this won’t be just a road of making and selling dolls, I’ll be documenting more if my personal journey as an artist. So let’s begin tonight.
It’s 1:43am and I’m waiting for the paint to dry while watching Netflix on my iPad. The house is nice and quiet and there’s only one light coming from my desk lamp. It actually reminds me of my childhood. When I was in either grade 1 or 2, I loved the Disney version of Pinocchio. There was a picture of Geppetto working in his workshop at night looking up at the sky wishing for Pinocchio. Haha I guess it’s eerily very similar. This took s very strange turn. Maybe it’s the paint fumes 🤷🏻♀️
This year’s Fall has been really strange. It is starting to get cooler but it hasn’t been at the regular temperatures for this time of year. The leaves on most of the trees are still green with only sporadic changing leaves on the trees outside the city and into the beautiful farm lands.
I’ve been having lots of action with regard to my more frequent travels to my favourite craft store. Not only is my destination to MacPerson Arts & Crafts equivalent to my “Disneyland” but the drive to St. Mary’s is absolutely beautiful! The quiet countryside is so filled with nature. With Turkey vultures circling over crops and wooded areas it’s so nice to watch them glide overhead, even though I know they are searching for their next meal.
I’m so in love with my travels on the back roads and the hidden dirt roads. Just the sound of the tires crunching over gravel is somehow satisfying to hear.
I’m in the middle of projects, custom orders and events. I can feel that I’m just about to get crazy busy with Christmas holidays approaching. I’m ready to get working.
Great adventures are continuing to get some momentum. This is where I do the best work, on crunch time with a pile of work to do.
Is it weird that I actually like to be swamped with work? 🤔
It’s time for the yearly hype over the new iPhone, we are now on version 8. I have a different strategy for staying in the phone game.
I used to work in a computer store, which sold cellphones too. Fido was a huge trend at the time and Bell was considered high end. The networks have evolved completely and so was the hardware. As you may already know. I am a gadget girl you can even say I’m a bit of a electronics junkie. The electronics game is fast paced and can cost you quite a bit of money.
I never get the first models that come out for example, the iPhone 8 will be released in a couple of weeks, I buy the iPhone 7. I get more bonuses, promotions and incentives. In general, more options for less money.
If there’s a major change in design and features of electronics (like a Sony PlayStation) I wait for a year for the bugs and glitches to be fixed before I buy it.
For apps, there are so many to choose from. I try as many apps as I can. Apps like social media, photo and video, filters, adding keyboards, marketing, business, payments, etc I have found so many great apps from trying all the newest available in the AppStore.
I recently bought an iPhone 7. 7 is my favourite number so I predictively had to get it. I agonized about the 7 or the 7 Plus for months. For women who understand, I wanted to get a bigger phone so I could type easier with long nails. I know, it’s boujee but whatevs I like to have nice things. I need to be reachable at all times for my children emergencies or doctor appointments..etc
Aside from the usual kerfuffle with carrier activations and plans, I couldn’t be happier. So far so good, my relationship with my phone is growing. Lol I know I’m weird.
Have a great one!
I think about all the struggles I’ve had and I can now laugh at them. Things were so intense and I gave myself unwarranted stress for no reason.
There’s nothing better than being able to look back at my accomplishments and know I really busted my ass for this moment. Everything family and friends have said to me “you have too many kids to make good money” “you can’t afford…” etc. was the fuel I needed to get me out of that self-doubting mindset. I had to really sit down and analyze myself as a whole.
People don’t see your vision and they definitely don’t see your efforts. Rather than gloating, I choose to extend my hand and help others achieve their greatness while I have attained mine. This is the whole reason I have been active on social media and offline functions and events. We all have a voice.
I have found my purpose and I’m proud of it. I leave you with this:
“Control” is a lie. You can only control your own reactions. Once you set your goal, you will experience joys and challenges. The challenges are Life’s way of redirecting you back on your path when you’ve slightly wandered away.
When you want something. The universe has only 3 answers for you:
1 – Yes, you can have it now;
2 – Not yet;
3 – I have something better
As most know, I’m a Foodie. I love all kinds of food, especially cake.
I went out to a buffet dinner over the weekend and I feel like I’m still full from it. The Mandarin restaurant is well known in my city so when they opened up a second location closer to my house I was super excited.
I walked in and everything from the food to the decorations was breathtaking.
I can promise you I will be coming back here often!