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My Nest Won’t Empty

A subject that has come up quite a lot but I really feel strongly about. Strangely a topic that seems to peak the curiosity of many and that is… “Don’t you think you’ll miss them terribly when they move out?”

The answer in every fibre of my being is N-O! Some msy say I’m “cold” but I honestly feel that is my job as a mother. To raise and release our children into the abyss of adulthood. I’m ancient enough to know that if we have any expectations of our children we will feel that low blow of disappointment, so I choose to stick with hope and a prayer.

I believe that is truth in all our relationships. Life has an interesting way of keeping us grounded and my children ground me and keep me going ensuring that I’m guiding and leading and on top of my parenting game at all times. Once they’re ready they will let you know.

I touched on the subject a bit on my last livestream. Now that things are more steady in my life I will be able to share more and it’s going to be so fun!

For now here’s my last livestream I will have videos uploaded very soon too so hold tight!

Thanks guys and cheers to a new and fabulous week!

My Nest Won’t Empty

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Whoa! That was close!

A follow up to my las Vlog about my skin reaction to my new drugs.

I called my doctor on Friday and explained all the problems with my skin, night sweats, etc. As part of the neurological team of specialists working with me, I have never experienced a doctor, let alone a specialist, drop everything to get on a 3-way call with his nurse and me to instruct me to reduce my meds immediately. It’s pretty scary since I’ve been on these meds for a year!

I was in the early stages of Stevens-Johnson syndrome and basically was chemically burning from the inside out and my organs were starting to shut down.. in a nutshell I was dying and days away from being hospitalized. The syndrome would’ve meant I would’ve been treated in the intensive care burn unit and would take months to recover! I describe the rash pain like when you scrape your knee, for example, it starts to heal but is tender to touch during the process. It’s the same feeling only the pain is from under the skin. It’s the weirdest thing. The human body is amazingly resilient and efficient. It was trying to get rid of all this chemical crap that was in my system.

The trick to this whole MS disease is the delicate balance of medication which changes and can easily be thrown out of whack. The hard part is that as soon as I feel good I don’t want that feeling to go away despite the side effects. I guess my balance has to be found in not enduring through the side effects. I’m not much of a complainer, but I’m gonna have to start writing some issues down.

Travel and events in the next year are already in full swing, contracts signed, staff to hire, etc. I need to be in medical healthy balance now more than ever! I hope this is the last hurdle I have to jump through.

I would say that’d be my Christmas miracle this year. Being with my whole family for the holidays has been awesome despite my medical scare. My family has completely fallen into abundance. Being around friends who share the same core values, interests and enjoy a good game of cards or pool 🎱 has been so fun. I’ve seen a whole different side of Canada and I’m going to see even more in the new year. I will definitely share that here.

Hope everyone is having a great week! Stay healthy, listen to your gut feelings and always love yourself and your life! Take care my friends ❤️

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Feeling comfortable

I can’t say how happy I am to finally be able to enjoy my artwork. I love what I do! I’ve been slowly building my doll collection, yes I’m probably going to be one of those women with a bunch of dolls. I did promise myself to not get crazy and go over 10 dolls in the entire house… ok well, I promised my boys.

It’s the beginning of the Christmas season and I can already hear the sound of crunch time. I have a few dolls to make before Christmas and few of my own I want to complete.

A couple of events happened over the last couple months that would’ve left me jaded about 5 years ago, but today is a very different day. I felt validated and self assured that I am on the right path. It’s funny what they say. When you feel adversity or opposition from others, it says a lot more about them than it does about you. I’ve learned that you do choose your future and things may look bleak but it must look that way temporarily in order to achieve what you deserve. 2018 is coming up fast and I am extremely excited! There will be lots of meetings, planning, coordinating, but my goal is worth it!

Let the Christmas songs, sweaters and Santa pictures begin! 🎄

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Therapy for healing

The first time I saw a reborn doll I instantly fell in love. As a doll lover I was so intrigued at how artists could express their own vision for each doll kit. Here’s my story:

In 2010, my whole world crashed, I went into the hospital expecting a quick fix instead, I was admitted immediately and fought for my life for 5 weeks away from all my family and friends. After those long weeks of not knowing, I was finally diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. That wasn’t the worst part, my neurologists, specialists and physicians informed me that I was no longer able to return to work, I had physical limitations, mental limitations and I would only get worse… oh, and that there’s no cure.

As a mother of 6 children, a wife, a sister and a daughter; giving up was not even a thought in my mind. However, I also knew I was going to go bananas if I didn’t have anything to do during the times when I would be bedridden. That’s when I thought about the reborn doll that my mother in law showed me. I, admittedly, became obsessive over every bit of the reborn doll process. I watched documentaries, read articles and spent hours self teaching, practicing painting and hair rooting. Working on reborn dolls became, and still is, my therapy.

I introduced the world of reborning dolls to my friend in New York. She loved my dolls so much and was so intrigued by them I decided to send her 2 of my reborn dolls, 1 for her and 1 for her mother who suffers from dementia. I knew about the therapy values of these dolls but nothing prepared me for the video chat from my friend showing me her mother’s reactions. Her eyes lit up and to this day, she holds and changes her babydoll every day. It was transforming for me.

A few months later, I was contacted by many who were curious about the dolls. One woman in particular reached out to me about her story and how she suffers from PTSD. We developed a bond and I put all me heart into a doll for her. Once her babydoll arrived, she sent me pictures of her family holding the doll and they were all crying with happiness, yes that included her husband. My husband and I were moved to tears. In that moment I knew the power of healing that these dolls have. My therapy can now help others and that is my goal for as long as I can create these works of art.

The first time I stepped into MacPherson’s I was speechless. It is an artist’s and doll collector’s dream! On my first visit I was lucky enough to have met Brenda. She is one of the most positive people I have ever met and her staff is equally friendly and sweet. As an artist, being able to physically look at and touch the different kits is invaluable to my reborning process.

I look forward to any chance I get to visit the store in St Marys which is only a 45 minutes away from my city.

Dear artists, this is a remarkable community and with the help and encouragement from the MacPherson’s staff, you can go through your own processes with ease. You will always be welcomed with open arms.

MacPherson’s always signs off with a “Have a beautiful day” and every time I visit, I do indeed have a beautiful day.

Thank you, Brenda and your wonderful staff for all your support for me and many other reborn artists, you are all beautiful inside and out.

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My Happy Place

I’ve been going to my “Happy Place” almost every weekend and I fall more and more in love with it. It’s one thing to support my art, but it’s another thing to receive the equal, if not more, support I have had lately.

My dolls are on display at MacPherson Arts & Crafts and I’m so excited!

I can’t explain how happy I’ve been too! My customers have given me amazing feedback and it’s such a gratuitous feeling to know that my art is helping people.

I’ve also seen many new artists’ work and children to adults are very intrigued by what I do. Yes, I am excited about the talent that has emerged from the love of baby dolls. As a Canadian woman, the joy of being able to go to a physical store that is the largest brick and mortar store in North America is something to be proud of. Every time I go to it I feel like a kid in a candy store!

I can look at any doll kit, supplies, clothes, etc all in one day. In this world of online shopping it’s such a relief that it is possible to shop and physically know what I’m buying. Since I’m very impatient it also makes getting the things I need instantly. I don’t have to wait for my order and stalk my tracking numbers.

It’s nice to know that my Happy Place is just around the corner.

I’ve made some vlogs lately so check them out on my YouTube channel so you can see the what the store looks like.

I love it so much!

Vlog #15 Doll Central

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What just happened?!

I can’t believe how blessed my life has been lately! It feels like everything I’ve done up to this point has finally come full circle. Through the struggles and disappointments, I’ve definitely learned that those were all life lessons to redirect me back on course to my goals and the positive person I am. My goals are finally in fruition and I’m ecstatic!

It took a few years however they were years well spent in learning about myself while making my business “base” secure. I feel a wave of more fun happening with my loving family and my beautiful friends. I’m completely surrounded by positivity and I can’t help but smile every morning. 😊😁

Since I’m a dedicated to make blog dedicated to reborn doll artists so if you’re interested in what I do and my artwork come and check it out! ❤️. My Reborn Artist

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24 hour Artistry

I've been painting and creating some beautiful baby dolls lately. It takes me about 30 hours to complete one doll but the funny thing is my obsessive compulsive tendencies goes into overtime. I've been painting until the early morning sunrise. When I do take a break I keep staring at my projects thinking what my next move is. My insomnia friend visits me often and painting helps to keep my mind busy.

Last night, I painted for hours listening to some R&B and live streaming on Periscope. I finished the painting so now I have two dolls that need hair. I have a third doll that is ready to be painted. I'm trying to time how long it would take me to make multiple dolls at once. I love a good challenge so why now put myself through one 💁🏻.
After 6 years of practicing my painting skills, I still find myself learning more about the sculptors and doll kits. What started off as a hobby is now a huge part of my life and somewhat of a therapy. I like to think that these dolls that I create can actually help many other people and that's why I love what I do.

I'm going to meet with the societies for mental and emotional health. I will be donating some of my dolls to these causes that I feel so strongly about.

For now I'm gonna keep on painting 😊 🎨

Hope you're enjoying your summer nights, if you're having trouble sleeping feel free to join me and my friends on my late night live streams via Periscope.

Much love
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