Alright this Saturday Night

My children wanted to learn our traditional dish of Filipino Lumpia. In a short description, they are small egg rolls usually made as appetizers, snacks, sides etc. I had so much fun teaching them how every piece is made with care and love. It was a nice bonding moment shared with my young men. I hope they will pass this recipe and technique to my future grandchildren.

I remember helping my mom and aunties make hundreds of these egg rolls. I was responsible for carefully pulling each wrap away from the other making sure they didn’t rip.

Overall, I’m proud to say that, despite the efforts to cut corners, they did a wonderful job and it’s nice to have help to make these traditional treats. The delicious Homemade Lumpia was devoured.

Enjoy the video! There will be more recipes and adventures soon!

Stiletto S

The Battle of the Platforms Part 1

I’m sure we have all been swirled in the mixing pot of updates and platforms it can be frustrating and confusing. I created my website around 10 years ago with my goal of doing reviews and self expression. I have always highly encouraged people to own their own websites then push it out to as many social media platforms as possible. Unfortunately, over time we got it backwards. I see more and more social media platforms take precedents over our voices. I see more and more users silenced and encouraged to become puppets and the social media platforms hold the strings. Giving up your data to apps is kind of like paying the piper with no real return. Through the years of observation I would guess that 90% of people don’t actually read the Terms and Conditions of their soon to be downloaded apps because most users are so excited to get the latest and greatest apps. I’ve watched people of all ages make themselves physically sick with worry about what they wrote, what others wrote and more and more I see good people crumble within themselves.

I’ve watched the steady decline of every “big” app and I experienced the rise and fall of the latest and greatest. I’ve produced and promoted my own shows and content which is, in itself, tough work. The best part is that I have the freedom to push my content to specific platforms. These platforms are designed to make money. They make money from paid promotions, audience size and use your data to justify their rankings in the stock market. Too much truth right? Let’s continue…

Let’s start with Facebook…

Ah yes the all powerful Facebook was designed with specific AI (Arificial Intelligence) from the time it was launched. I come from the background before internet, there were bulky monitors, green texts and symbols. We used our computers to look up products and place orders. I worked in an IT firm where we sold Microsoft licenses, hardware, software, dongles, Nikon cameras and more. We sourced for huge companies and I made really incredible contacts. Dial up Internet was the rage and Nokia cellphones were the main phone you could drop it you could easily replace its broken casing. Y2K was the biggest fear to companies but as IT specialists, we knew way in advance and it was a simple code to move our systems from 1999 to 2000. Crazy right? This was also a moment in time where Apple was not even a key player in business, we referred to Apple products as toys for kids, like a cute video game. Apple products didn’t fit in a Microsoft world of business. Moving forward, with our plastic Nokias and the business version, that you could only buy for business, was the Blackberry. I’ll get into phones in another post.

Back then, technology was getting faster and more advanced. The dial up was now in almost every household. We were getting more tech-savvy and we wanted a way to stay in touch because texting was still pricey per text. Gone were the days of ICQ and other online chats where we met people and yes people would troll each other in those rooms too. Think of these chat rooms like a bunch of mini apps where the administrators create the room and monitor them online dial up. Facebook was born and offered a way to keep in touch and share photos and such. It was an exciting way to catch up and communicate. It was especially important to families who were spread out around the world. We wrote posts updating our lives and main life events. Eventually, businesses were added and the rest is what you see today. Facebook became an obsession and a platform for adult and children bullying. Chain letter forwarding through private messages breeds more stealing of identity, unsatisfied customers making horrid reviews destroying businesses. What I see on Facebook now is so far from what it was meant to do it is sad. When Mark Zuckerburg got himself into some hot water over the AI and gathering of information he unknowingly unleashed a “beast” that is now impossible to undo. Facebook itself has a questionable future despite these so called ratings that favour Facebook by users alone. I’m watching Facebook crumble and despite these Facebook loyalists, I’ve been in the tech biz long enough to see the signs. My personal opinion is not in favour of the Facebook platform for my mentioned reasons and so much more. The AI and information gathering has transformed itself into an intrusive way for others to know about intimate details of your lives. This “safe space” has developed TV shows like Catfish and movies like Unfriended. It saddens me that a seemingly innocent app started off with such promise has now turned into a mixed bag of good and crazy.

Let’s move on to Twitter…

Twitter has been my go-to social media spot but I have observed their huge decline over the years as well. Twitter is like a huge chat room. Nothing like Facebook. I found Twitter to be filled with amazing writers, poets, comedians, business partners everything I love. There really isn’t anything to “get” about this platform. You basically write words, let off some steam, make people laugh and even make business connections which are an excellent way to network. It was freeing to be able to express myself and not be judged. You receive real time news and information which is excellent. Over the last few years I see where Twitter has been failing. It’s turning into a bad generic form of itself. Censorship is starting to run rampant as more and more people leave the platform. What was once a playground of expression is now turning into a long list of rules that don’t apply to anyone. For business and promotion it’s been growing it’s commerce flooding timelines with ads which is great but if Twitter keeps banning tweets reprimanding paying business accounts, they won’t have any users and business partners left to send these ads to.

In short, my stance is still “Find your voice and own your space online”. Getting wrapped up with follower numbers and complaining to tech support is not going to get you far in your online adventure. Social media is an extension to bring people to your content. I often ask people who talk about their follower count, where are you taking your followers to? 98% of people cannot answer this simple question. I’m a strong believer in self empowerment and I believe that users need to understand that no app is forever. All content you upload belongs to that platform. Let me repeat every picture, every word, every account belongs to your favourite app. You’re a number and if you bring more people to their app you can fill their pockets and potentially lose your “followers” should they choose.

The Battle of the Platforms will be an ongoing battle as apps come and go, users come and go.

My questions to you is..

Who are you? What do you do? Where can people meet you? Why do you want to be online? How will your voice be heard?

Battle of the Platforms continue to Part 2..

Getting into a Zone

I took some time to really reflect on what I want to do with my artwork and what direction I wanted to take it. I remember my mentor and the encouragement of so many of my supporters. It is time to get out of my own head.

Once I picked my paintbrush up my whole world started to come to life. Like pieces of a puzzle falling easily into place. I was working on details today and I could feel good energy flowing through every stroke. Spending time chatting with friends or listening to music while I created felt so natural. Living in fear of anything is such an unnatural feeling. Like it’s not supposed to be in my head, like my body and mind rejects it right away. I’ve seen these same things in others. It’s so nice to be able to share things with someone who understands. I’m good at loving people, but I’ve been really terrible at loving myself and picking out every mistake I’ve ever made.

At this point in my life every single person I’ve let into my life has been the most incredible teachers. The invaluable lessons I’ve learned. Holy crap they were hard but if they weren’t so hurtful I would have continued to be around people who lie and are manipulative awful human beings. Whether it be for acceptance in a weird adult clique or out of habit these people were never good for anyone. People lie, people talk shit, but it’s probably because that’s what they are, great big steamy piles of shit. No one of any class wants to be around that.

With a new attitude and a different direction I think I can navigate through this better route on this journey. I’ve been planting, creating and trying new recipes. I’ve finally resigned to the fact that this whole world is different. It’s time to do what inspires you. It’s a great ride, you guys!

Much Love


Family Time

The summer continues with some very unsettling weather but I’m taking advantage of every moment of the bright warm sun. With 2 poodle puppies, socialization has been challenging. Luckily, we discovered a park with a pond! We walked around and I’ve never been so grateful that I added 2 standard poodles to our family. They have brought a lot of comfort to every member of our family. The smiles on the faces of my children playing fetch in the water with Tootsie has been such a blessing.

1 year old Tootsie showing her water retrieval skills

I’ve spent time learning more about the history, as well as how much this breed of dog, the Standard Poodle, has contributed to the many breeds of dogs on the world today. Getting 2 standard poodles at around the same time I see so many differences between them. It’s so interesting to own the same breed of dog yet they are so different in their own way.

I decided to train my 2 dogs in the best way they’re suited to. So far, I’ve observed Tootsie’s drive for a job and natural love of water. Babbette has already helped me as a service dog so I will be training her differently as well.

I’ve been so inspired by my children and the dogs. They all stay in the moment and to them less is not only more, it’s way better.

Here’s the kind of fun we had on our first outing to the pond. My goal is to walk the dogs there and back regularly. 🤞🏽🤞🏽 (Weather permitting) With all my renewed energy I want to do as much as I can to get to my goals.

Cheers for summer inspiration


Babbette ready to jump in the water

The Truth about the Reborn Community

I’ve decided to finally talk about my experience with the reborn community. I will be addressing 3 individuals who have been the worst people disguised as friendly in social media. You can read about the cyberbullying and threats many in the community have done in my posts in May and June 2019.

I will systematically address every individual who has defamed and slandered my company, my team and myself. This will be a kind of cleansing for me and a warning to others who are as naive as I was about the women involved in the community.

I have not only held the first Canadian Doll Show of this caliber, I was asked to judge the international dolls of the Doll magazine. However the amount of disrespect, immaturity and mental instability of some in the community unfortunately ruin it for others. I’ve received raving reviews about the show both in person and through emails and messages. They were afraid to voice their true opinions for fear of “backlash” or being ganged up on. This is NOT what I expected from people who claim to love the dolls and their artwork. Let’s start:

Brenda the owner of MacPherson Arts & Crafts is not only a conniving saboteur but a racist. I know this because I’ve known her for 2 years and have had first hand experience with her. What I thought was a family oriented woman turned out to be someone I decided to personally stay away from. Professionally, she is like a child worried about being called out for her gossip and poor business practices. She is incapable of separating personal from business and a character flaw I cannot work with.

Working tirelessly selling dolls and accessories isn’t easy especially online. There have been chargebacks of all kinds from credit cards, PayPal, eBay, etc that artists have had difficulty getting paid for their work. My vision was to have a place where doll makers and enthusiasts can come and see the art first hand. The show was also proof of goods sold so if there were any shady dealings there would be proof and witnesses to ensure the sale was legitimate.

I worked for 2 years on this show and Brenda would have all kinds of excuses and dragging her feet at promoting and spreading the word because she wanted to have full control, as most narcissistic brats do. When you have an artist trying to do good for her community and an ogre with money hungry fingers it is nearly impossible to get out from under their thumb. She would ask me to buy products under my name so she could analyze them and possibly duplicate under her store name. I agreed to do it and in hindsight I shouldn’t have and I regret it full heartedly.

I didn’t know any history yet my mind would always spin with her constant chatter about other people. She was banking on me to lose and 6 months before the show she said she was pulling out her store name. She then rounded up her artist friends making herself the victim manipulating people knowing they didn’t know me from mud. She didn’t come to the show because she is unprofessional. Period. I will never give my money to a racist and I’m not the only one who has had issues with her racism. I will make sure the new artists know what she is truly about and they can make up their own decisions. Buyer beware!

Krystle, Life with Krystle YouTube, I met her at a Doll show a couple years ago and I really liked how she was with her channel and saw her fans surrounding her and I thought, wouldn’t it be nice to have a place where she could have her own meet n greet. I befriended this woman and yes she was extremely difficult to deal with. She emailed me constantly with the same questions which I had no time to keep answering. I paid for her room AND gave tickets to her for her fans and guess what my thanks was. A video demanding answers of why she didn’t get a better meal. Her friends were even annoyed with her. In real life she is nice to your face because she isn’t mature enough to figure out anything as simple as someone supporting her and giving a space. What a waste of money on that! Instead of voicing her opinions to me she took it to YouTube. In real life she’s a taker and a scam artist. She obviously wasn’t raised to be grateful. What comes around goes around.

Let’s talk about Shanine, The Twisted Beanstalk YouTube. I talked to her on the phone explained my show and she seemed to be on board. Of course when the witch Brenda worked her evil mouth confused her then she called us scammers. The woman’s booth was the ugliest no sign, no product booth I have ever seen at any trade show. She was too busy smoking and getting high that she never tended her booth she hid in her room, went to Niagara Falls disappointed her fans even making a little girl cry. We paid for her flight for her and her daughter. She made a pathetic video calling us scammers. Hmm how can I scam myself when she stole all my paints! She has been banned from a US show and now I know why! Geez

This all being said I may continue with a part 2 of the other vendors who have slandered and defamed me as well.

We are ready to pursue legal action and thankfully for their videos and comments saved on Facebook, which they have assured me they have copies of, it will be easy breezy.

To new artists I know you are afraid of all this drama but I assure you they are nothing compared to your talent. I was cyberbullied by grown women who have zero facts and I KNOW I’m not the only one but I still make my dolls and sell them easily.

Don’t let these women manipulate and lie to you. You are talented with or without them. Many women in this community are in cliques, they gang up on newcomers, bash and lie. Pay them no mind, some are paranoid, some are scared some are mean spirited, some are evil.. all anger comes from fear and that is all this shit is. Unfortunately, this community aired out it’s dirty laundry, its mistrust of others, it’s two-faced nature and their true colours all over an awesome doll show. I have also met the most amazing people through this tornado of a community. They believe in me what the show stands for and a vision just waiting to explode. It’s not all doom and gloom the majority of people enjoyed it and the hotel owner was so impressed he brought his entire staff out to see what we did. I don’t regret it one bit. I take these awful people for their face value…they’re plastic. Shiny cold hard plastic.

P.S. I have included an email I sent to these individuals. Others will get an email and a possible summons 🥰

Mass email:

Despite the sabotage and the lies about the IAC Doll Show I am proud to say that Dina, Travis, Lisa and my family didn’t give up despite the drama and we are proud that we created the very first International Doll Show in Canada. Because I don’t feel like writing separate emails to everyone I’ll just write this mass email, so let’s start:


You were most likely worried, like the immature child that you are, that, I would meet artists and that you talked about. Give it up Brenda, just stop talking about people’s personal lives, stop gossiping and whining to everyone because you didn’t get your way. You do this everywhere you go and to every person you are in contact with it’s rather toxic hence why you are unable to keep any friends. We/they invited you into our lives and told you intimate things, but like a cheap rusty sieve to you just can’t help but inflict your agenda and to spill your tea on everyone. You don’t spare anyone your own family, me, your staff’s, Laura Lee, Natalie, Bonnie B., Bonnie S, Kristie C., Suzette.. it’s sick! I’m literally new to the doll world I don’t know anyone but damn did you ever volunteer Canadian and American artists’ personal details. I was so uncomfortable because I only wanted to talk about their artwork not their personal life. It was pretty gross and super tacky, Brenda. “Oh Ester from Irresistibles, I hate her she’s my nemesis. Every time I post something she’s right there behind me ”. Geezus Brenda, do you even know how Google Ads works?? Duh clearly not so let me simplify.. she paid for ad space like everyone else online.🙄 Running, whining and pestering artists so you can get your answer when you want it. Have you ever thought of respecting people’s space? “I don’t know why they aren’t calling me back?!” Hmmm maybe they don’t want to talk to you and are tired of you pestering them. People don’t need to answer you on YOUR time you seriously have no boundaries. Calling me or anyone else 15 times a day because you’re backtracking every ugly thing you said and silence me is freaking annoying. Oh as soon as I told you Bean signed on to be a teacher you couldn’t wait to call her and talk shit confusing her, working that good ol’ sloppy witch agenda because you also are slow to understand what IAC was doing for our teachers. “Why are you doing it that way? Doll shows always work this way?” It’s simple it wasn’t like other doll shows but obviously too hard for you to get because you can’t control it.

Btw Here’s the thing, you talked about a “brown girl with a white abusive boyfriend, they scammed people in London, at the same hotel” I really can’t remember their names but you sure do. I’d like to interview them and put their story out there too. Or is that your narrative when it comes to mixed couples that don’t involve you in their business (I’ll come back to this)

*Side note: the hotel owner LOVES what we did because it was awesome*

You told me that Suzette experienced “reverse racism, you know when black people attack white people” what?! when you said that I just about died in my chair, guess you didn’t pick up on that when I wanted to go home. Most racists wouldn’t get it so let me school you, racism is racism in all cultures, colours etc. Us brown people aren’t the only ones. Period.

I knew you were going to put YOUR NARRATIVE about me and my husband out there (obviously because I’m brown and my husband is white and I didn’t want to deal with your racist ass anymore) because that’s your go-to sabotage plan whenever it comes to someone who doesn’t agree with you. You went right to racism especially when they’re “tanned”, also I’m not tanned it’s called melanin, it didn’t come from the sun, I was born this way.

You didn’t think I’d pick up on your manipulation and what you were trying to do?! You conveniently brought it up when I refused to do things your way how predictable. Yuck. I continued to make the first Canadian Doll Show even after you sabotaged it, luckily I now know that racist trash takes themselves out. Happy to report it was better without you and what your little minions have reported. I’m sure you talked a lot of shit about me and told all your artist friends so much bullshit bc they don’t know me. Luckily, the artists, the vendors, etc have their own minds and see passed your whiny simpleton actions and guess what, real adult women don’t have time for your crap. I’ve talked to quite a few artists and shockingly not so shocking they really don’t care for you at all. Now I know why smh

You are conniving, manipulative and two-faced even your own family warned me about you and the back stabbing that happens in the doll world, I remember that. Sabotaging the IAC Doll show and using it to promote your own store like the evil witch you are. Now you know you can’t control me, artists, family and my friends I know you don’t sleep well. Probably need more crystals for that. I told you I had to go for an infusion for my MS and what did you say? “OMG what will happen to us and the show if you died? We’d all be screwed!” That was the icing on the cake. My short answer. I’d be dead and you’d go on doing more of your evil shit.

These are all the reasons I chose to distance myself from you personally.

Professionally, you’re pathetic. Your books are a mess hence why you wouldn’t give me my dolls back. You have a problem paying any artist that puts their dolls in your store. Dina bought my dolls back for me for $900 bc she was my best friend, you idiot! She felt sorry for me because of all the things you were doing. Quit trying to form stupid alliances with people you’ve claim to dislike it’s just dumb. You told me to be careful of Dina. Why? Oh wait because Suzette doesn’t like her because Dina has her doll in a museum.. wasn’t that the word vomit you told me? Your staff doesn’t even like you and probably for the same reasons. Geezus Brenda you are a hot mess. Luckily for me, my children love me AND enjoy being with me. Getting your son to call my husband with threats? Really? It’s laughable bc it was a friggin doll show that YOU tried to control and sabotaged. But hey, he even knows the truth about you doesn’t he lol

Suzette stole money 10 years ago, she also cyberbullied Kat Majestry and you funded her and still fund her to this day! How can you be so cold and have no boundaries?! You only serve yourself and when the dust clears my fellow artists will still have talent without help from you. Poor form, Brenda.

You hate muslims bc they’re violent? I’ve met many all over Canada and they’re lovely people, you didn’t even want to hear anything good about Muslims. You can’t stand Paula bc she’s Jewish wtf is wrong with you?! Negatively talking about people’s skin, race, religion, culture is highly offensive!!! You will not get a pass from me with an “I’m sorry” you’ve said and done too many racist things in my presence and after 60 years you still don’t have a clue, or you just don’t care. Nope you are not the kind of person I want my children to be exposed to anymore.

Where are those flyers you said you distributed? Why didn’t you just give the flyers back so we could distribute them ourselves? Why are you so shady? Your distribution you said you had is a farce. And you’re a liar for saying you distributed them! You lie as soon as you open your damn eyes! We all know you pitched them because you didn’t want to see the success of the show without your store name and your money hungry hands involved. Btw boasting about your business’s $2 million annual income is your gross not your net. You also have non-liquid inventory in a morgue and employee expenses to consider and subtract from said income. But ok. I know what your modus operandi is. CONTROL you said it yourself to my husband “I know I have a problem with control” well no shit Sherlock, you try to control everyone but you sure as shit won’t control me nor IAC. Get over yourself. When you started telling me all these artists’ personal life details didn’t you think it was inappropriate?! These women trusted you to keep things private who are you to expose them like that?! They don’t know me and I don’t know them!! It’s demeaning and cruel! I knew you were building your “case to destroy” me, too. All your poison came out when I posted a huge thank you on my PERSONAL Facebook to Dina, why so jealous?! It had nothing to do with you! Dina and I are artists you wouldn’t understand but you ran and ASSumed that it was a slight to your store! It’s not all about you, you narcissistic sociopath! You freaked out!! You asked Dina to remove her name when I tagged her! Who do you think you are? The goddess of the doll world?! Maybe you should focus and spend more time on developing your supplies than on Facebook lurking everyone’s posts thinking it’s about you, it will serve you better.

Brenda, you’ve lost so much not only friendships but this “integrity” that you keep trying to convince yourself that you have. Do you even know the definition? You have none of the attributes, you need to start practicing what you preach. God doesn’t like ugly and you know it. Pray on that. It’s not enough to just attend church you actually have to absorb the teachings and apply them to real life. I’m optimistic for you because someone’s got to be. Your ethics are way off the mark. Very eeew!

As far as Dina, you can stfu when it comes to her. You and your group did a lot of horrible things to her years ago trying to prevent her doll from getting into the museum because of jealousy or God knows why! You have no business spitting your evil venom about her, to her nor about any artist. That’s just awful and sickening. Telling us to “be careful with Dina don’t trust her” what the heck was that all about?! She is a great person, caring and loving. No one knows our discussions outside of social media because that’s how true friendship works OUTSIDE OF SOCIAL MEDIA something I know you are lacking. Your life is your punishment and it shows. I hope the many years of betrayal and deceit you’ve done to artists in this doll industry catches up with you. Your many years of racism may have been excused in your past but it will never be excused in your present. That is simply who you are. I’ve seen it in your personal and professional life. You can’t “unracist” yourself it is part of your being. I will file you away like I’ve had to with other discriminators, right with the garbage human beings where you belong.

As for you Shanine Bean whatever the hell you want to call yourself. Since I started making dolls I loved watching your videos I was so excited to know you were the first person that believed in a new show. I was completely wrong about you. Brenda didn’t even think you had any talent and that you wouldn’t attract any attention to the show. She didn’t even want me to invite you! IAC paid for you and your daughter’s room, flights, picked you up. How could you involve your daughter in THAT SCAM?! That’s a pretty bad parenting decision. Do you know the definition of scamming? Read on it and let me know how you’re not the definition of a scam artist. Your non-factual opinion bashing us was disappointing. I wouldn’t want you to foster anyone’s kids if you keep up with that garbage. It was simple:

IAC paid for everything you just had to teach and make an awesome booth so people in Canada could see your artwork and enjoy yourselves. Too hard to understand because change is hard for you. That’s fine. Why couldn’t you be honest with me? Not my husband. But Me. You went like a sheep to the shepherd in St Mary’s booo 👎🏼Lmfaoo. I remember when you told me Stephanie thought you were two faced well damn on me for defending you as an artist and as a person you had me really fooled. Stephanie may have been right!! Making videos bc you’re bullshit and scared to say it in person really? People who showed up to see you were so disappointed. You didn’t hurt me nor IAC YOU HURT THEM. You uploaded a petty video pretty quick with zero facts which I have in writing! Stop spreading your vinegar all over the place about a show you didn’t attend that was witnessed by every vendor and attendee. This is a bad look as a “foster parent”, defamation and slander is punishable in both Canada and the US. It’s illegal, but I’m sure you already knew that. Brenda didn’t even think you were talented and didn’t even like your dolls! I laughed my ass off at that irony so comical. Sadly, I was gullible, too, I believed that you were a good person and a decent human being, YouTube sure does make people look better than they are in person. But go on with your bad self, Shanine. You told me people in this area of Canada hate you, well maybe the common denominator is you? Hmmm ..You want to foster children? Well stop acting like a child for heaven’s sake and don’t be hateful when absolutely nothing bad happened to you! Oops sorry the NuWave oven was cracked, Princess, you can’t have it all. You’re old enough to know what you did was wrong to do to people who spent hard earned money to make sure you and your daughter were safe and that you had fun. You weren’t even present at the show with your empty booth all the vendors were pissed at you and Brenda as Canadians for your no shows. Your friend Stephanie that you said told you you were two faced, tell me how she is wrong. Making lame videos of slander and defamation, do you even know what you’re doing?! What are you 30 going on 13? The only one that was taking advantage of people was you! LOL I forgive you though, you’ve got issues. Smh good luck to you, you weirdo. Hope you learn something about yourself and your poor decisions. It’s not enough to post words of positivity and unicorns when you were unkind you should know that by now. If you can’t see your wrongs in all of this well then maybe karma will shed some light. Peace ✌🏼

Krystle, I wanted to give you a space to have your meet n greets. Unfortunately, with your thousand questions I really didn’t know why you kept asking so many. You had your fun in the hot tub with your friends and ate the food etc. So again wtf is your problem? You are so ungrateful and you don’t even make dolls anymore. But hey why not add you to the list? Maybe your friends should be more honest about what they really think of you. I forgive you too though bc I really should’ve spoke more directly and slowly to you about the plans. Maybe you wouldn’t have been so confused if I spoke slowly to you. Food for thought, you should be more grateful when people give you things, it’s not polite to act so supportive and like you’re having fun then make hate videos. I’m sure no one else offered you anything at any other shows. Actually I’m positive none before IAC lol! But I get it go on with your Llama drama haha you have to follow the Bean instead of having your own true train of thought as there are videos and pics of you having a hoot. Videos and pics of you having fun don’t lie, lady. I’m glad you put out your real happy true videos before your accusatory ones that were lies and puzzling. Anyway despite your fickleness, you did have a great Meet n Greet and your fans were happy, that matters more than your prima donna attitude.

As for any of you that make juvenile posts and videos of hate, what is wrong with you? Get off social media and hug your children and family members and pray that they will never be bullied online. It’s a terrible look for the doll community and for you. Some of you got so heated over IAC’s first show. Of course it wasn’t perfect, no show is but guess what? I did my main job, I provided a space for you to sell your dolls and accessories I spoke to each of you in person and you all said you sold items and not one of you told me that you were upset. I knew this Canadian Doll Show was inevitable we are amazing artists and the vendors I met were some of the most down-to-earth women I’ve ever met. The negativity and videos said and made are NOT the majority. The participants are happy and waiting for the next date as I’m sure it will be even better. Those who have offered to help and those who gave words of encouragement are the ones who I am thinking of for the future and you know who you. A guest at a wedding at the hotel said and I quote “I have never seen anything like this! This is amazing the artwork is incredible! I wish I knew about this sooner! Did you do this?! Thank you thank you so much for doing this!” She would’ve known about it if she got the flyer, thanks for nothing Brenda 🙄 anywhoosy…

Now that the back story is finally out there with 2 years of deceit, racism and sabotage with a manipulative narcissist some much needed light has been shed on the North American doll world, I believe we can all move on.

If our show is not for you so be it. For those who want another show I’m undecided on a date for now but I will contact you with details.

On to much better, have a great day. 😊

P.S. please feel free to share, make videos, chat about it over tea, tell your dog, tell your cat whatever it is that will make you feel relevant. For everyone else thank you for your support we’ll chat soon.

Let’s rewind…

We’re going to take this to about 6 months before the show. Deposits were made, supplies, decorations and final floor plan layout were being finalized. We were getting messages of excitement and figuring out details of the events. As far as I knew, the investor and my team were all on the same page. I was on the phone day and night trying to coordinate schedules and supplies. As I mentioned in previous blog entries, my plan was to pay for all the teachers’ travel and hotel expenses. I thought it would be nice for teachers to not have to worry about those types of details and just come and teach. The first teacher I admired and kept me smiling through my recovery was Bean from the Twisted Beanstalk. She was the first one to sign on and liked what we were doing. That was the absolute worst joke of an investment of the whole show. We spent thousands for her and a guest to join. After her class, she had the worst booth. No effort and she was absent for most of the show. Fans drove for hours to see her, but I guess that was superseded by her own agenda.

Shortly after she spoke with “B” she became different and turned out to be a horrible person. Basically, she took advantage of honest people, got a free ride and then decided to bash people who worked and saved to have her represent a Canadian born artist. Didn’t see that coming, I guess money talks and shiny rainbow plastic walks.

Not to worry, the gals and I kept going. “B” started sabotaging us by telling people we were just a local show, we gave her over 100 flyers that she said she would distribute well she failed at that too. People were waiting for those but nope! I started noticing that people started distancing from my show. You know when you get that feeling that someone is talking some shit? Yeah it was feeling that.

“B” and I were friends but my friendship had waned since we first met when she starting to talk about the drama from someone who stole from artists about 10 years ago, every artists’ love life, their home life.. like man, I just wanted to meet new people in the doll world! I didn’t need to know all those details! It was gross because she considered these artists her friends and such. I know that when someone talks about others so openly, they’re bound to talk about me so I quietly started distancing myself. Too late her mouth was already opened and flapping.

Last December 2018, after reflecting on some racist things she had said to me, some condescending words about the show and how she’d be “screwed” if I died, she said that right before a very scary infusion treatment, it was so mean. I knew the bond of friendship was severed. The trust and respect was gone. She called and messaged but I had to focus on my family and my recovery plus there really wasn’t much more to discuss. If you see in many of my videos, I supported and loved “B”, I loved her store, her family etc but when someone makes it their mission to destroy your name because they severed ties, that shows them in a whole new light with the lack of maturity that I require in all my adult relationships. It showed me someone who is desperately backtracking out of their own guilt. There was no need to try to destroy Canada’s first doll show/convention and disappoint fellow vendors, I simply didn’t want the focus on her booth alone. She didn’t like that and bailed on the whole show it was a huge disappointment to people at the show but I can’t say I didn’t see it coming. As predictable as she is, she was hell bent on ruining my show and me as an artist she wanted to befriend artists and collectors to gang up on me. She failed at that too! To this day, 14 days after the show I’m sure videos will be made and people will still be upset.

My vision will remain unchanged I wanted to see Canada’s artists in the spotlight. I want to see everyone that won the contests succeed and go on to create more. I will do this to the best of my ability even if it means I stand alone. The last two years have been difficult and there’s no way I could’ve made it through without my small group of support who hide in the shadows. I know you’re there and I love you oh so much for having my back.

I can honestly report that 98% of the people who attended were happy. Many were waiting for a Canadian show, many thanked me for putting one together. It was our very first Canadian show and it was janky af! 🤣 It was also so freaking fun putting it together, standing on the stage and looking at all the smiling faces was the cherry on top of my flattened and undercooked cake.

I may be confusing, very misunderstood and full of crassness on one hand but on the other I’m just a regular Canadian gal who’s trying to do good things with her artwork.

Here we go!

It’s the early morning before the Grand Opening of the first IAC Doll Show in Canada!

After 2 years of planning and preparing with my whole team we have finally arrived at our much anticipated Day 1 of 3 in the world of dolls! So far, we’ve received positive and exciting feedback with the classes and I hope we will be able to add more classes next year!

It’s 4:57pm and I’ll have to be awake and ready to go by 6am to start with vendor setup. I’m pretty much running on fumes.. but it’s oh so much fun!!

More soon…


5 Day Countdown…

It has been a very full year already! It has been an incredible rollercoaster ride but I figured I should take you with me.

I have been working on an international doll show for that over 2 years. I’ve had my share of challenges through this journey but I didn’t give up and I am now 5 days away from a new piece of Canadian history! As a Doll Maker and craft doer I’ve been self taught in everything I have done in my million years of life. I’ve made quilts, stuffed animals, costumes for my kids… I have always been interested in how things are made and adding my flare when I give it a try. After my bout of health recovery and a note from my doctor stating I could never return to work, I felt like I needed some kind of purpose in life. My family was my motivation for my career but those few words and a disease telling me I could no longer have the lifestyle I lived was utterly devastating. My family members, as supportive as they are, were also going through their own kind of mourning and loss of who I used to be. It was a reality that was so hurtful and they struggle with it daily. Basically, I was given a lemon farm and I had to figure out what to do with myself.

After getting through my loss of normalcy as I had known it, I found myself alone in a quiet house and I had nothing to do. Aside from dishes, laundry and mopping I spent most of my time in bed with my laptop. It was 2010 and adjusting to my new world was going to take some time to get used to. Of course my depression was in full effect but YouTube opened my world of isolation. I didn’t have a lot of friends, by choice, I didn’t want anyone in my home and I just couldn’t cope. After watching videos of quilt making and clothes making I stumbled upon a video made by the Secrist company where they were demonstrating how to sculpt a baby head, lips and eyes. I continued on and binged watched everything from painting to rooting hair and I was absolutely hooked. I accepted that my days of having an actual baby were dwindling so I devoted all my time to creating these lifelike looking dolls.

I’ve been doing custom order work and practicing my craft paying attention to fine details for over 10 years and I finally found my “voice” through my artwork. I met the most amazingly talented fellow artists and have many customers/friends who appreciate what I do. After many years of creating, I want to give back to this loving industry and community.

After 2 years of planning my partners and I created the IAC Doll Show. The first one in Canada and the most anticipated in the reborn doll community. Many world renowned artists not only live in Canada but have supported my vision for the entire venture. I will give back to this community and the people who have supported me.

As my favourite Disney princess sings:

“…no matter how your heart is grieving, if you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true”

I hope you all have a fabulous week and I will update you as the countdown continues 🥰


5 Day Countdown… so I bought stuff

Productively Positive

I must say I’m uber proud of myself! Not only have I had so much success with my event planning, but I have been sticking to my schedule by uploading and posting on time with my doll channel. I have an amazingly strong team behind me full of energy and positivity!

My Creative Director has left me gobsmacked with her ideas and proactivity, I feel truly blessed. We had some early bumps in the road with some hits and misses with my team, but we finally have our footing and the right people who are ready for 2019!

It’s an amazing feeling to see my ideas and goals come to fruition. As an entrepreneur I admit I was afraid that my vision was misunderstood. My advice to those preparing to run a business is to hold on to that vision until the right people come into your life. I held on for the right time and boom I’ve had nothing but positive results and I’m now surrounded with strong professionals that are self motivated and love what we do.

In this sea of competition, I believe that many people lose sight of what really matters. When dollars and cents are involved it can clash with the pure love of the art. I’ve seen many people blur the two things and end up in competition with each other. Well, my fellow indie artists, the only challenge you should ever accept is the one with yourself. Art is interpretive some will love your work some will like others’ work don’t let that discourage you! There are billions of people on this earth you will find your “people” you will find your niche.

I find it very sad when I see people envious or jealous. Those are 2 horrible traits to have, let those things go! They serve no purpose but destruction of relationships and contribute to the destruction of your soul. Steer clear of poisonous people and their venom and never second guess yourself. Sometimes the most venom comes in the form of a friend, a coworker and even a family member, you will rise above and you will recover. Trust your instincts, you know, that voice in your head or that knot in your stomach even the warnings of others. I love the saying “listen to what people tell you about themselves because they’re right” not sure if that was Dr. Phil, lol, be aware that you do have a choice to ignore, deny or accept those warnings to be true. I admit to ignoring those warnings in my past and sure enough the outcome was not a good one.

Going into 2019 with a heart full of happiness and a plan is the only way I choose to start this year off right. I hope you all find your footing and wish you a positive and productive new year!


IAC Doll Show

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