It's the Civic Holiday weekend and it feels like the summer months passed by so fast! I blame most of this on the weirdest weather I've seen in years! It would rain so hard it sounded like hail against my windows, thunderstorms at least once a week followed by extreme heat where I could hardly breathe. Although, I'd rather have this weather than the upcoming winter months.
The back-to-school supplies and clothing are in all the stores, I can almost hear my bank account cry for my school shopping days that are just around the corner. It will be an emotional school year for me as my last little pterodactyl will be leaving the nest to go to school. So far, he knows his numbers up to 10 and backwards, but he refuses to sing the alphabet song lol. Thanks to the iPad he does know what the letters are, but he just doesn't like the song. I'm guessing that he thinks the song is dumb, he rolls his eyes every time I ask him to sing it.
Lately, my days are filled with doll orders and event planning. It's a truly exciting time for me. I have found what I love in all aspects of my life from the kids, social life and now my artistry. They often say that when your personal life is good everything else around is chaos. I am living proof that the saying is NOT true. We all need to find the balance in our own lives or things get harder and harder to do. It's like the universe makes some things in our lives difficult in order to accept something better in our lives. "Out with the old, in with the new" has a deeper meaning than we think. This whole year has unraveled many important life choices for me. My family relationships have been stronger now than ever, financial security is finally here, reuniting with my childhood best friend, maintaining deeper relationships with my friends from all over my online world and forming new amazing friendships who have cleared my mind and settled my soul.
Yes, you can have it all, yes abundance is attainable. If you want these things, you have to release everything that you know is holding you back. It will seem so difficult to let go, but it will be worth it and those difficult moments you are experiencing right now, will be in your distant past. Right when you're about to give up hope is when you have to gather up as much strength as you have to get through the rough moments. You will see your end goals, not when YOU want to see it, but when you're ready to accept it.
It’s 3am and I can’t sleep and for some reason tonight feels heavy, in an anxious way. I’ve made so many changes in my life over the last 2 years, I guess I still haven’t wrapped my head around how fast things happened.
The words “go with the flow” used to be just a saying I heard all too often, but yet here I am, today, agreeing with every syllable of that exact saying. Gone are the days when I would have everything scheduled around everyone else from my job to my family. When I think back on those days, I don’t remember ever feeling, even a moment of, the kind of happiness I feel now.
I gave up everything in exchange for a huge question mark. Nothing was certain, nothing was guaranteed, there was only the last shred of determination and hope I had left. Choosing myself gave me such a foreign feeling for such a natural thing.
The snow is melting and the warmer winds are starting to blow in, much like the Spring.. all great things are blossoming. 🙂
It’s midwinter and it’s unusually mild weather outside. Similar to a damp Spring day it has all us Canadians weather confused which leads to questioning everything from or clothing to what drink we want to start off our days. I spent most of the day putting laundry away, fixing beds, answering emails and setting my schedule for a busy upcoming weekend when the 12 Days of Christmas begins.
I must say I’ve had a very productive last week which allowed me to debut my new radio show successfully. I co-hosted my new show, Stils On The Grills, with Bishop Moonshine who was not only great to chat with but is extraordinarily funny. I’ve decided to do more than one show a week so I’m currently working on those. I felt so great being back on the mic, it felt a lot like coming home after such a long hiatus and completely changing my creative plans. I’m so excited about all the upcoming plans for all my various medias. I will also be uploading some new videos very soon so don’t forget to keep checking in with me for details!
It may be a very warm and strange winter so far, but Christmas is definitely in the air and I am so excited to get some Christmas crafts, baking and shopping done over the next couple of weeks!
I hope you are enjoying your week so far 🙂 much love to you all!
Since the kids have been back in school I’ve been running around keeping up with their schedules as well as my own. My deadlines are coming up quick and as I was rushing around to get to appointments; I realized that I ran out of some key makeup products: eyebrow pencil and mascara.
I headed to Walmart to pick up some items and picked up a few items to try out.
I haven’t purchased drugstore products in a few years so I was very interested to see how far along their formulas had come. I found some false lashes during my search so I decided to try them all exclusively for the upcoming weeks.
Brow Artist Designer by L’Oreal
At first I found the pencil to be really stiff, however I warmed up the product with my fingertips and it glided on nicely. It isn’t a very pigmented product but that also helps for those who are a little heavily handed with brow pencil applications. The attached spool brush is so handy especially for travel purposes.
*Tip: Use short strokes with a light hand alternating the spool brush to distribute brow product evenly
The Super Sizer by CoverGirl What drew me to this particular mascara was the brush. It is a thin rubber brush with short bristles which makes getting into the root base of my lashes effortless. The formula is like a gel consistency and it surprised me with it’s staying power. It survived my 12 hour day without flaking nor running.
*Tip: The formula takes a little longer to dry so wait 5-10 seconds after application to ensure the formula is fully dried.
Demi-Wispies by Ardell
I chose to try these out after they caught my eye with how pretty the curl is in each false lash. In comparison with my pairs of lashes from the Premium Luxe Collection by House of Lashes, these lashes have a much thinner band and are easier to apply. The design of the lash flares out in length and width as it approaches the outer corner of the eyes making the eyes look more flirty. This is a great affordable and versatile lash that you can easily transform any look from day to night.
Nothing can humble a parent more than when they require an operation. Although it was considered “minor” the powerless feeling was so overwhelming when they wheeled him out of the room in a steel crib that resembled an animal cage.
The newest hospital improvement is now a random number attached to the patient’s name. The waiting room has a huge monitor to watch and track the patient’s whereabouts. It’s a lot like the airport monitors where one searches through to look for their flight number. He stared at me with his great big eyes and it took everything I had to not breakdown and cry.
The whole hospital visit took about 5 hours.
It took about 3 days for the pain to finally subside and his appetite has finally come back. I’ve been awake on 24hour on-call nurse duties so, I’m happy that he’s back to his sleep schedule.
Now that my son is healing, I’ve been able to film and edit so you will be seeing much more of the video projects I’ve been working on as well as my radio show shenanigans.
Click the links to see my recent and previous videos:
You are worth more than I diamond ring
You are my blessing as well as my sin
Please protect my heart and my mind
These are the rarest of all tender finds
When things are foggy and simply unclear
Please be my light and shoo all my fears
The happiness I see when I look in your eyes
I see that it’s you… You are my prize
Beginning this past Monday, my trip to get my Philippine passport once again was put on hold, fortunately, I did manage to get all the papers in and will be picking up my passport officially in May… MAY 2015! Ugh I was extra frustrated when I read the May pickup date, but hey, you can’t beat their processing game so I have to just live with it. I do have to pick up some legal documents next Monday, however I’ll just leave that event for now and try and get through this week.
As soon as I got home on Monday evening, I had to go to the hospital with my son because he had to get some minor surgery on his foot. It was yet another uphill battle, surrounded with sickly adults and coughing babies… it was enough to make my head spin! The doctors were excellent and it went well. He has to recover at home, obviously, and I gained yet another “job” of being his nurse… UNfortunately for him, I have a terrible bedside manner and I did happen to yell at him for moving when I was trying to change his gauze today. It happens…
I have a full week of appointments so this just is not my favourite week. This weekend looks way better and I’m looking forward to my upcoming radio show on Saturday evening (Stiletto Says Episode 3 http://tobtr.com/s/7405951) It will be a huge relief after this week is finally over.
Hope everyone is having a better week than I am! Much love to you all and KEEP SMILING! 😉
Once again, I hit the road on another major errand.
Along with my driver, my brother lol, and my son in the back we travel to Toronto where I have to obtain my Philippine Citizenship. When my parents arrived here from The Philippines they had my brother and I before they were officially Canadian Citizens, therefore by default, my brother and I are Philippine citizens as our birthright.
We inherited land and I have to show that I am truly a citizen. (It is illegal to own land in the Philippines if you are not a citizen) I had to got to the Philippine Consulate in Toronto to do this. My brother and I made this trip 2 times before and since this was our 3rd trip to the Consulate I had triple checked that I had everything I needed. Our birthright situation is a very uncommon one and there were 2 separate applications I was required to fill out plus a lot of documentation I needed to have sent to me in order for my to complete the process. Luckily, the nightmare is over and I can rest easy. I will have to go back to Toronto in a few days to get my official passport, but I know that this time, I will be much more excited!
Here’s a few moments of my trip with my brother from my craziness to some highway rest stop food. He’s my big brother and my first best friend who has put up with me since I was born.. poor guy… but, we always have a great time hanging out, laughing and chatting.